note to self and stuff

90% of the time when i can say "i'm not ok", i'm drunk. and if it's the 10% that is, i'm really not ok. seriously, in that case, i can totally advise myself to go get as drunk as posslble and text pin about (hypothetical, virtual, call whatever you want) "suicide". i uttered those words tonight, but thankfully it's that 90% of time. i know that. ha bi de, beşiktaş sahildeki kırık iskele babası (a.k.a iskender baba) seviyoruz seni. <3. küçüktürüç. ♥